levana's symphony

everything new...

2008-08-13T09:32:00.000-07:00

after 1 year and how many months... i've finally opened my blog again... REJOICE! so this would be undergoing some renovations and a change of settings and posts.:) to see some of my links just click on the right bar and there you can also see the link to my personal blog. ;p

2007-07-09T10:26:00.000-07:00

bakit ako umaasang may panahon ding mamahalin mo ako? grabe pumapasok ako sa isang pag-ibig na wala namang patutunguhan... isang pag-ibig na 'di ako kayang ibigin pabalik! bakit ako nagpapakatanga sa pag-aalala't pag-isip sa'yo, samantalang ni hindi man lang ako sumaglit sa isip mo? sana 'di ka na lang dumating sa buhay ko! nakakainis isiping may mahal kang iba, pero sobrang sakit isiping sinasaktan ka naman niya. kung ano ang taong pinapangarap ko eh ganun lang itapon ng iba! sana 'di na lang nagbubulag-bulagan ang puso mo maghanap ng iba! umaasa ako't hinihintay ka buong buhay ko, samantalang ikaw habanmbuhay na umaasa sa pag-ibig ng iba na 'di naman mapupunta sa'yo... hay! kung sana kayang turuan ang puso na 'di magmahal, matagal ko ng ginawa! nabulag lang siguro ako't may pag-asa pang makita ang liwanag para sa aking kabulagan sa'yo! kung alam mo lang sana't kung alam lang ng babaeng mahal kung gaano siya kaswerte sa'yo! kung ako siya 'di kita iiwanan kahit kailan!

hey! it's july!

2007-07-01T00:52:00.000-07:00

nothing... it's just i'm proud to announce that this is the month of july! july is the month of ano nga ba?!
fil-am friendship day?! ah baka kasi papasok na naman ako sa achievers?! ah baka month of long tests!!!!
ah baka retreat ng angela... baka may magpagawa! launching ng iba't ibang contests! nutrition month?!!
or pwedeng month ng birthday ni jaja & charles.. feast ni st. benedict?! first time magsusuot ng gala!?!!!! 
magbabayad ulit ng tuition?! magbabayad ulit sa service?!  or mag-rerecorder kami! first friday mass?!!!
or hmm... ewan! wala na akong masabi eh! un lang!!!!!!  updates lang para sa mga tao! un lang!

forwarded lang sa akin.. pero nakakarelate ako!

2007-07-01T00:47:00.000-07:00

> Many twenty something girls out there are asking:
> Why am I still single? I’m sure every other
> girl/woman/lady asks the same question. Pare-pareho
> tayo ng litanya: “I’m smart, I’m not completely
> unfortunate looking, I’m funny and I’m willing to
> commit but WHY AM I STILL SINGLE?” Well, instead of
> going crazy asking myself that question, I decided
> to come up with a few answers. I’m not saying I’m
> drop dead gorgeous and as smart as Marie Curie but
> come on, every guy I’ve talked to told me they want
> a smart, witty, sensitive and attractive girlfriend.
> I’m sure all the other ladies my age possess these
> qualities and at the risk of being redundant, we all
> ask ourselves: Why are we still single? Allow me to
> present the top three theories that sprung from my
> demented mind:
>
>
> 1. Naghihirap ang bansa natin at bumabagsak ang
> ekonomiya. Hindi naman kasi ganun kadali humanap ng
> trabaho ngayon di ba? Nagtitipid ang mga lalaki
> dahil mahal na ang bilihin ngayon. Sa panliligaw
> palang, kahit sa Dangwa ka bumili ng bulaklak,
> magkano na ang gagastusin mo. Isipin mo pa ang
> pang-gasolina or pamasahe papunta doon at ang
> katakot-takot na traffic. Eh di sana, ipinang-lunch
> na nila yun hindi ba?
>
>
> Tapos siyempre dahil kailangan magmukha silang
> concerned, kailangan lagi nilang tinatawagan at
> pinapadalhan ng text messages ang nililigawan nila.
> Isipin niyo nalang yung load na nagagastos nila or
> yung binabayaran nila sa bill ng telepono. Minsan,
> demanding pa tayong mga babae dahil gusto natin
> imported na chocolates or flowers na mamahalin. Kung
> hindi naman tayo demanding, gusto lang talaga nila
> magpa-impress kaya mamahalin ang ibibigay na mga
> regalo/suhol sa nililigawan.
>
>
> Siyempre, pag naging kayo na, magastos parin.
> Because of the infamous male ego and pride, hindi
> pwedeng sagot ni babae ang date kaya si lalaki parin
> ang magbabayad. Kahit KKB, gagastos parin si lalaki.
> Sayang ang pera. Even if you love each other that
> much, love won’t pay for the movies you know. And
> think of the gifts. Every Christmas, birthday,
> Valentine’s Day, Anniversary, etc., you have to give
> your significant other something. Especially pag
> Christmas kasi sisipsip pa sa magulang, kapatid,
> pinsan, etc. ng girlfriend/nililigawan at bibigyan
> sila lahat ni boyfriend/manliligaw ng regalo.
> Mahirap kumita ngayon dahil mataas ang unemployment
> rate, mahal ang bilihin at likas na kuripot ang mga
> lalaki. Hence, females like me have no boyfriends.
>
>
> 2. May mga babaeng perfectionist. Admit it, every
> female is looking for the perfect man. Apparently,
> the perfect man does not exist… yet. What are the
> qualities we look for in a man? Gwapo, may kaya,
> responsible, mature, sensitive, funny, smart,
> presentable, gentleman… the list is endless. We have
> to face the fact that the perfect man doesn’t exist
> kasi it’s practically impossible to find all these
> qualities in one man. If we ever do, the guy is gay,
> a priest or married! No, I’m not saying that we have
> to settle for second best but maybe, just maybe, the
> perfect guy is out there, we just have to lower the
> standard a notch. He might not be perfect in every
> way but his flaws just might be the very reason that
> you will love him. Kasi yung imperfections niya ang
> reason why he might need the person made for him…
> for that person to be the one to pick him up when
> his flaws take him down. I’m not sure if that made
> sense but I do hope you get the point.
>
>
> 3. The last great theory (and the most likely) of my
> demented mind is that there are more males born than
> females every minute of the day. I don’t know what
> the ratio is now but a couple of years back it was 4
> females to one male. Can you believe that? Imagine
> sharing one boyfriend with three others. Plus you
> have to face the fact that maybe that one male wants
> to be a female. Or that one male devotes himself to
> God. Siyempre, hindi mo kakaribalin ang Diyos di ba?
> Or that one male is married. Would any female want
> to play second fiddle? I know I wouldn’t.
>
>
> Patience is a virtue, that’s my mantra. The theories
> I made up are just there to console me whenever I
> feel I’m missing out on something kasi I’m single.
> Case in point: Valentine’s Day or weddings or family
> gatherings na hinahanapan ako ng boyfriend. He’s out
> there somewhere, the boyfriend that at the moment is
> missing in action. While he’s not there yet, enjoy
> being single. Sabi nga ng iba, wala pa tayong sakit
> ng ulo and pag gigimmick, sa parents lang tayo
> magpapaalam at walang message na biglang darating
> from a boyfriend asking us where we are, who we’re
> with and what time tayo uuwi (daig pa ang tatay
> ko!). The perfect guy for me will come along when
> I’m not looking for it. And when he does, I’m sure
> everything will be worth the wait.

FOUR SEASONS --THE MEASUREMENT OF LIFE

2007-07-01T00:46:00.000-07:00

There was a man who had four sons. He wanted his sons to learn not to judge things too quickly. So he sent them each on a quest, in turn, to go and look at a pear tree that was a great distance away. The first son went in the winter, the second in the spring, the third in summer, and the youngest son in the fall.

When they had all gone and come back, he called them together to describe what they had seen. The first son said that the tree was ugly, bent, and twisted. The second son said no--it was covered with green buds and full of promise. The third son disagreed, he said it was laden with blossoms that smelled so sweet and looked so beautiful, it was the most graceful thing he had ever seen. The last son disagreed with all of them; he said it was ripe and drooping with fruit, full of life and fulfillment.

The man then explained to his sons that they were all right, because they had each seen but ONLY one season in the tree's life. He told them that you cannot judge a tree, or a person, by only one season, and that the essence of who they are--and the pleasure, joy, and love that come from that life--can only be measured at the end, when all the seasons are up.

If you give up when it's winter, you will miss the promise of your spring, the beauty of your summer, fulfillment of
your fall. Don't let the pain of one season destroy the joy of all the rest. Don't judge life by one difficult season. Persevere through the difficult patches and better times are sure to come some time or later.

Have a nice day! :-)

sana may magsabi sa akin nyan!

2007-07-01T00:44:00.000-07:00

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no.

She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said no.

She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he

replied with a no.

She had heard enough.

As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm

and said....

You're not pretty you're beautiful.

I dont want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever.

And I wouldnt cry if you walked away...I'd die...

when priests quarrel...

2007-07-01T00:36:00.000-07:00

WHEN PRIESTS QUARREL

by Fel V. Magaray
Manila Standard Today
Monday, June 25, 2007

AS AN alumnus of the University of Sto. Tomas, I was
pleased to know about the ongoing reforms and
modernization of the UST Hospital, one of the
country’s leading and reputable institutions in the
field of health care and medical education.

These changes started in 2005 when the UST Hospital
spun off from UST, its mother organization, to become
an autonomous unit—a non-stock, non-profit corporation
with its own juridical personality and management.

The upgrading of the UST Hospital, located within the
Catholic university’s sprawling campus on España,
Manila, will enable it to further expand its already
impressive medical facilities, respond to the needs of
its growing number of patients and boost its income
position.

Already benefiting from these positive and drastic
changes are the indigent patients who enjoy quality
medical services at the charity ward with subsidy from
the hospital’s paying division.

In line with the reinvigoration of the UST Hospital, a
new building is under construction and scheduled for
inauguration by the latter part of the year. Being
done simultaneously is the acquisition of
state-of-the- art medical equipment and facilities,
including a new clinic space for 1,000 doctors and a
facility catering to patients from other countries.
Also part of the expansion plan is the establishment
of the country’s first cancer institute within the UST
campus.

Fr. Ernesto M. Arceo, OP, the UST Rector, stresses
that the USTH remains a teaching hospital even as it
is being transformed into a full-service medical
center. Arceo also makes it clear that UST retains
ownership of the USTH although this is now a
“juridical autonomous entity, administratively and
operationally.”

Spearheading the upgrading of this medical institution
is the UST Hospital Board of Trustees whose members
were appointed upon the instruction and confirmation
of the Master of the Dominican Order of Rome, Father
Provincial of the Dominican Order, Rector Magnificus
of UST and its Board of Trustees.

Unfortunately, a group of detractors is trying to
derail these meaningful changes with their persistent
attacks on Church hierarchy and UST officials and
their decision to reform the hospital. The detractors
include disgraced, renegade priests who were removed
as officials of the hospital due to alleged
mismanagement, corruption or neglect.

What is disheartening is that these attacks have been
repeatedly fired despite having been sufficiently
answered by the UST leadership itself. In fact, the
explanations for all these supposed irregularities can
be easily found with the USTH itself. UST executives
have, time and again, given the following responses:

1. The gist of the attacks against USTH is the
allegation that after its incorporation into a
non-profit, non-stock corporation, it had been
separated from the UST Faculty of Medicine and
Surgery, which supposedly owned the hospital. This is
entirely false because the USTH and the Faculty of
Medicine and Surgery have never been an integrated
entity. Both are owned by the UST and prior to its
incorporation, the faculty was given merely by the UST
supervisory authority over the hospital.

Aiming to arrest the slide of the USTH’s financial
standing, the UST Board of Trustees decided two years
ago to incorporate the hospital and make it an
autonomous unity. But the university remains its owner
since the funds for the incorporation were placed in
trust to two incorporators, composed of nine Dominican
priests, who were named by virtue of their offices,
two doctors named by the UST board and one of the
university’s lawyers. The UST maintains ownership of
the USTH—the incorporators are merely its nominees or
trustees.

The misconception over the ownership of USTH stemmed
from the fact that the Faculty of Medicine and Surgery
had been given supervision over the hospital for
years. This became an unwritten rule. Also because of
the previous setup whereby the hospital was a unit of
the university and only those who taught at the
faculty could practice at the hospital, it became an
unwritten tradition that those in the faculty somehow
wielded power and control over the hospital units,
including some of its administrative posts. But never
was there a time when the faculty owned the hospital.

As the hospital grew, however, and with the
incorporation of USTH, the university opened its doors
to other UST alumni who were competent and certified
specialists in various fields of medicine. This
somehow displaced some faculty members and religious
administrators who previously lorded it over the
hospital. These same people have been tagged as the
ones behind the smear drive against the USTH.

2. Another allegation is that with its incorporation,
the USTH has decreased the number of its charity beds.
The fact is the hospital still maintains 460 beds
dedicated to charity patients. Dedicated means that
unlike other hospitals, such beds cannot be used by
paying or private patients. Occupied or not, such beds
are maintained for clinical or charity patients.

Before its incorporation, the USTH was not able to
accept as much patients in the charity ward because of
lack of revenues from the paying division. It is only
the paying division that subsidizes the charity
division. The hospital does not receive any subsidy
from the government. The tuition from the Faculty of
Medicine and Surgery are not used to subsidize the
charity division, contrary to allegations that these
funds are being siphoned off to the hospital— these
are remitted directly to the university coffers.

Since its incorporation, the USTH has been able to
improve revenue from the paying division which, in
turn, has enabled it to accept more patients to the
charity ward. Currently, the charity ward has an
average occupancy rate of 65 percent, the highest
level in the last 15 years.

3. Another criticism is that because of the new setup,
the USTH has become an elitist hospital that has
abandoned its crucial responsibility to the poor
members of society.

This is farthest from the truth. As already explained
in preceding paragraphs, the hospital has had to
institute measures to beef up revenues from paying
division in order to accommodate and subsidize more
indigent patients.

The cost of maintaining a 65-percent occupancy at the
charity ward is about P115 million to P125 million a
year, as only 25 percent of charity patients are
covered by PhilHealth insurance. But even with this
amount of subsidy, charity patients still have to
shell out 50 centavos for every peso of treatment
cost.

Boosting the USTH’s revenues is also geared at
bolstering the hospital’s capability to join the
bandwagon of medical tourism, a worldwide phenomenon
on which Philippine hospitals are trying to cash in.

surbei galeng kay clone...

2007-07-01T00:16:00.000-07:00

1. Do you have an alias/a.k.a?
- uu! rocky/rockyroad/aquel...
2. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
- ah.. top three... rockyroad, capuchinno (tma ba spelling?!) & coffee crumble!
3. What movie/s are you waiting for?
- ah.. harry potter
4. If you wanted to be in a band, what genre?
- bossa nova, metal or alternative one!
5. What is the weirdest thing you've ever eaten?
- the siopao, w/c i suspect having a cat as their meat! ewww...
6. do you want to live with your parents forever?
-nope! but that doesn't mean i don't love them!
7. Where is the place you want to be right now?
- uhhmmm...on the bed, sleeping or in katipunan w/ my classmates?!
8. What song do you listen to feel happy?
- hmm... makes me happy?! any song i guess...
9. In The Lord of the Rings, who are you?
- ummm...FRODO?!
10. In , who is your favorite character?
- Anakin Skywalker
11.What movie/s made you cry?
- ah... a walk to remember, magnifico & a lot more... (i love mushy things! huwaat?!)
12. Name famous people you had a crush on?
- Dennis Trillo, Keanu Reeves, Richard gere & Daniel Radcliffe!
13. What is your favorite drink?
- water, softdrinks & tea!
14. Which cartoon character is your favorite?
- of course bugs bunny is my favorite among all of the looney tunes characters!
15. Good or Bad?
- of course he's freakingly naughty.
16. If you could freely kill just one celebrity, who?
- not celebrities... i do love them all...
17. Elevator or Escalator?
-both?!
18. In a week, how many times do you go online?
- uhmmm...per day? forever.
20. Single or married?
- single
21. Describe yourself in one word?
- what's up doc?! (hihihi^_^)
22. Describe yourself in two words?
- dead kid!
23. What's the last thing you do before you go to sleep?
- I close my eyes!
24. Something about you that you're proud of:
- hmm... many things to b e proud of kasi eh...
25. Are you in love?
- yeah! before! but today... i'm trying to forget him!
26. What is a friend?
- a friend?! ah... ur bestad... ur shining star!
27. Are you happy?
-now?! hmm... not really?!
28. Why?
- uhhhh......... dunno
29. What is the most important material object you possess?
- computer!
30. What are you listening to right now?
- listening to the typing of the comp...
31. Complete this sentence: THE WORLD NEEDS...
- ME! because i'm their savior... what?!
32. What was the last thing you ate?
- my lunch!
33. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? why?
- grey, because the weather is dull!
34. What did you eat for breakfast?
- ah... the same food i've eaten for my lunch?!
35. Last person you talked to on the phone?
- hmm... nikki! kim's lil' sis!
36. Last person who sent you an SMS?
- .....kyan... bf of noems..
39. Automatic or Manual car?
- none!
40. Favorite day/s of the week?
- it depends on my mood!
41. Favorite place?
- bedroom!
42. Sports Wear Apparel?
- sportfest outfit or pe uniform!
43. Dream Hairstyle?
- to be straighter & longer than sadako!
44. Dream Girl?
- uhmm. can it be dream guy?
45. Dream Car?
- diablo please!

2007-06-26T12:17:00.000-07:00

Hi God! For this day, I thank thee for guiding me & giving me up strength & do hope that I could keep my goal on not to get a line of 7 this year. Whew! Very shameful to know, that until this year I'm still getting that thing called "failing" or "zero"! Well... God help me allthroughout this day & later w/ my reporting & 2 quizzes. And I also hope that everyday I could see improvement in my grades. Thanks a lot again!

theme song ko para sa sarili ko ngayon!!!

2007-06-25T13:04:00.000-07:00

I don’t know why
But when I look in your eyes
I feel something that seems so right

You’ve got yours, I’ve got mine
I think I’m losing my mind
Coz I shouldn’t feel this way

Catch me I’m falling for you
And I don’t now what to do

(chorus)
How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me I’m falling for you
How can time be so wrong
For the two come along
Catch me I’m falling for you

How can love let it grow
When it has no place to go
And I can’t go along pretending
That love isn’t here to stay
Catch me I’m falling for you

Cause I could just walk away
Without you thinking today
I would die just thinking of you
I know we can never be
More than friends you and me
But why do I feel this way

Catch me I’m falling for you
And I don’t know what to do

(chorus)

Maybe someday I’ll see why love did this to me
Coz I can’t go along pretending
That love isn’t here to stay
Catch me I’m falling for you

Catch me I’m falling for you
And it’s wrong for me to feel this way
Coz I don’t know what to do without you
I’m falling for you….
Catch me I’m falling for you

How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me….. I’m falling for you…

if ever you have read this, how i wish you catch me before my head falls unto the ground. if it happens your memory would be lost forever & that would be the only time that i'm gonna be awakened from a wonderful dream! a dream that my world revolves around you & you alone! i'll never say the word i love you then, but always remember that i'm the girl whom you left alone falling for you & still waiting for you to comeback to me!

bakit kaya ganun ang buhay?

2007-06-25T04:23:00.000-07:00

"haii... ang kapalaran nga naman... minsan lang maging kakampi! madalas ito'y 'di dapat pagkatiwalaan! err...:((" ~ walang masama sa mag-react, pero iniisip kong marami ng maling 'di na dapat balikan o dagdagan... mahal ko man ang buhay ko, ngunit ito mismo ang gumagawa ng paraan upang itakwil ko ito ng kusa! ang saya noh?! haii... buhay nga naman... 'di ko na kayang kontrolin ang emosyon ko maging ang kapalaran! sana naging mabait man lang ito sa akin kahit panandali lamang! kung alam man lamang ng buhay ang mundo'y isang makalangit na impyerno sa lupa!

a question for you...

2007-06-25T03:46:00.000-07:00

the first time i saw him after i was about a year & how many months i was at sea & didn't know how would i react to it. whew! i was completely in the state of shock, don't know what to say, do or react. feeling hopeless & sorry for myself yesterday. good i didn't cry myself to sleep or else my mom & i would be fighting about him. i do want to keep my feelings as a secret & also his identity. i don't want that any other people would just be throwing back questions against him or for whatever happened to us before. he's just a servicemate, that i really hated him before but now i loved him more than i could possibly say. i never felt this before, but rest assured i've been trying my best to forget him & even my past feelings for him. all i remembered is "i remember the bo, but i don't remember the feeling anymore!" as one of the songs said. how i wish he just gave back that love so that i'm proud to say that at least you've loved me even for once... so here's a qustion i wanted you to ponder on... "why can't you just love me the way i do to you? what's missing on me, that you tend to find someone else? how i wish she could give more love than i do...;("

why is may'o7 so important to me? part 2...

2007-06-23T21:08:00.000-07:00

the other reason why may'o7 is so important is because of our fiesta! it was like we're only 3... my mom, ate nita & me who cleaned the whole house then we asked helped from my aunt eva & her sisters... (whew! thank God! we survived that test!) actually there are lesser people than what we've expected. well... my bestfriend (carol), her mom & her sis (angel) came! tricia & her mom also came! it was like we chateed all day long. (but honestly tricia & her mom is just a "salingket!" in our conversation! but good thing her mom & she didn't ruin the day & just cooperated w/ us, by not acting as the "primadonas!" may one & december 26 are two of the happiest days in my whole life because that is the only time that i see my beloved bestfriend! she's more than what i asked for God... she's one of the blessings i'm grateful to have... how i love her very much... it's really true that your bestfriend/s is/are the things that fate forget/s to give us! well... just a sharing of what happened last may one! cheerios! i love seeing her & chatting w/ her! how i wish she's always just 'round w/ me!

these are two of our pictures...

why is may'o7 so important to me?

2007-06-22T16:14:00.000-07:00

The whole month of May was really special for me because of my review class in Achievers!:) I'm very thankful having a part of that class because of the following reasons...

i have acquired new lessons & i do had the time to go back with our past lessns.
new tips about the interview & other stuffs that we need to know for our entrance exams.
i had the chance to be close w/ my schoolmates, most specially ayn.
then i had the chance to befriend other people form the other schools.
i've shown here the real me & my abilities.
in every tests/drills/seat works & the like, i've ssen the improvement of my grades.
i was able to understand the things that i didn't understand way back when i was in yr.3 & yr. 2!
then i my mother allowed me to commute on my own! (heheheh! 'tis just i think 6th or 7th time that i was able to go out on my own!)
i really liked the food tripping w/ my lunchmates!
then i've done so many things on our review class that i can't do in school like using of cp's soundtripping & a lot more!!!

some of our pictures...

if you want too know more about us visit our account in friendster...
tropangachievers_rockz@yahoo.com

and to see all of our pictures just visit...
http://bugsfrogsstars.multiply.com/photos/album/19

why do boys fell in love with girls?

2007-06-22T14:06:00.000-07:00

Message: (This was written by a guy)

Don't break this; it's so sweet! :)

1. They will always smell good even if
it's just shampoo.

2. The way their heads always find the
right spot on our shoulder.

3. How cute they look when they sleep.

4. The ease in which they fit into our
arms.

5. The way they kiss you and all of a
sudden everything is right in the
world.

6. How cute they are when they eat.

7. The way they take hours to get
dressed but in the end it makes it all
worth while.

8. Because they are always warm even
when its minus 30 outside.

9. The way they look good no matter
what they wear.

10. The way they fish for compliments
even though you both know that you
think she's the most beautiful girl on
this earth.

11. How cute they are when they argue.

12. The way her hand always finds
yours.

13. The way they smile.

14. The way you feel when you see
their name on the your cell after you
just had a big fight.

15. The way she says "lets not fight
anymore" - even though you know that
an hour later....

16. The way that they kiss after you
have had a fight.

17. The way they kiss you when you
say "I love you".

18. Actually...Just the way they kiss
you...

19. The way they fall into your arms
when they cry.

20. Then the way they apologize for
crying over something that silly.

21. The way they hit you and expect it
to hurt. * i think every girl is
guilty of this :)

22. Then the way they apologize when
it does hurt (even though we don't
admit it).

23. The way they say "I miss you".

24. The way you miss them.

25. The way their tears make you want
to change the world so that it doesn't
hurt her anymore...

Yet regardless if you love them, hate
them, wish they would die or know that
you would die without them it matters
not. Because once in your life,
whatever they were to the world they
become everything to you. When you
look them in the eyes, traveling to
the depths of their souls and you say
a million things without trace of a
sound, you know that your own life is
inevitable consumed within the
rhythmic beatings of her very heart.
We love them for a million reasons, no
paper would do it justice. It is a
thing not of the mind but of the heart.

A feeling.

Only felt.

tinik sa buhay...

2007-06-21T11:04:00.000-07:00

ang aking buhay noo'y isang patapon
ni hindi alam kung may sasapit pang
umaga. sa bawat araw na iniipon
palaging sawi, palaging hinahagilap
tuwang kailanman 'di nakamit.

ilang tinik pa ba ang dapat lakaran?
halos namanhid na ang puso sa tinatahak
na landas... makaramdam man kakaunting awa lamang,
awa para sa sarili't sa mga nakapaligid sa aking maliit na mundo.

ang mga tinik sa dibdib ay 'di ang siyang
nagpapahirap sa akin, ngunit ang paulit-ulit na pagtatraydor ng kapalaran.
maaring maging kalaban ito, o maaring kakampi.
mas minamabuting tumayo't makipagsaplaran
at lumayo para labanan ito.

why?

2007-06-21T10:51:00.000-07:00

why do i always dream of you?
why do i go crazy whenever i see you?
why do your voice keeps ringing to my ears?
why is it that i'm always a prisoner of my love to you?
why do i keep on struggling for a love, that could never be mine?
why is it that whenever i look around me, i always see your face smiling back at me?
why do you keep on loving her, eventhough she keeps on hurting you?

how i wish i was just in her place...
how i wish i was just the girl that you've been crazy about...
how i wish i could have you even for a day...

you'll forever be in my memory...
before the angel of death comes...
i'll finish this melancholia that kept on haunting me.
and i'll gladly accept my death if you'll even give me the flower i used to have unto my deathbed... the same flower you used to give when i was still a part of you...

2007-06-05T16:58:00.000-07:00

This is a story from University of the Philippines(Diliman) about a
young college girl who passed away last month.

Her name was Summera. She was hit by a dumper truck. She had a boy
friend named Arif. Both of them were true lovers. They always hung on the
phone. You could never see her without her cell phone. In fact she also
changed her phone from Smart to Globe, so both of them can be on the same
network,and save on the cost and get good network coverage. She spent half of
the day talking with Arif. Summera's family knew about their
relationship.Arif was very close with Summera's family. (Just imagine their love).
Before she passed away she always told her friends "If I pass away
please bury me with my hand phone" she also said the same thing to her parents.
After her death, people couldn't carry her coffin, I was there. A lot
of them tried to do so but still couldn't, everybody including me, had tried to carry the coffin, the result is still the same. Eventually,
they called a Feng Shui Master. He took a stick and started speaking to
himself slowly. After a few minutes, he said "this girl misses something here". Then
her friends told the Master about her intentions to bury her with her
phone. He then opened the coffin and places her phone and SIM card inside the casket. After that they tried to carry the coffin. It could be moved
and they carried it into the van easily. All of us were shocked. Summera's parents did not inform Arif that Summera had passed away. After 2
weeks Arif called Summera,s mom. Arif:"I'm coming home today. Cook something
nice for me. Don't tell Summera that 'm coming home today, I wanna surprise her."
Her mother replied..... "You come home first, I wanna tell you something
very important." after he came, they told him the truth about Summera.
Arif thought that they were playing a fool. He was laughing and said "don't try to fool me - tell Summera to come out, i have a gift for
her Please stop this nonsense". Then they showed him her grave. He said...
"It's not true. We spoke yesterday. She still calls me. Arif was shaking. Suddenly, his phone rang. "See this is from Summera,
see this..." he showed the phone to Summera,s family. All of them told
him to answer. He talked using the loudspeaker mode. All of them heard his conversation. Loud and clear, no
cross lines, no humming. It was the actual voice of Summera & there was no way others could use her SIM card
since it was nailed inside the coffin. They were so shocked and asked for the
Feng Shui Master's help again. The Master brought his co-masters to solve
this matter. He & his co-masters worked for 5 hours. Then they discovered
one thing... Globe has the best coverage. Where ever you go, their network follows
(hehehehehehehe)!!!
Never in my life have I read such an email...Wasted ten minutes
coz of this...It's your turn now ;-)

17 signs of falling in love...

2007-06-03T15:38:00.000-07:00

SEVENTEEN:

U LOOK AT THEIR PROFILE/PICTURE A LOT

SIXTEEN:

WHEN YOU'RE ON THE PHONE WITH THEM
LATE AT NIGHT AND THEY HANG UP, YOU
STILL MISS THEM EVEN WHEN IT WAS
JUST TWO MINUTES AGO.

FIFTEEN:

YOU READ THEIR TEXTS or SMS OVER AND
OVER AGAIN.

FOURTEEN:

YOU WALK REALLY SLOW WHEN YOU'RE
WITH THEM

THIRTEEN:

YOU FEEL SHY WHENEVER YOU'RE/THEY'RE
AROUND.

ELEVEN:

WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM, YOUR
HEART BEATS FASTER AND SLOWER AT THE
SAME TIME

TEN:

YOU SMILE WHEN YOU HEAR THEIR
VOICE.

NINE:

WHEN YOU lOOK AT THEM, YOU CAN'T SEE
THE OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU, All YOU
SEE IS HIM//HER.

EIGHT:

YOU START LISTENING TO SLOW SONGS,
WHILE THINKING OF THEM

SEVEN:

THEY'RE ALL YOU THINK ABOUT.

SIX:

YOU GET HIGH JUST FROM THEIR SCENT.

FIVE:

YOU REALlIZE THAT YOU'RE AlWAYS
SMILING TO YOURSELF WHEN YOU THINK
ABOUT THEM.

FOUR:

YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THEM, OR
ANYTHING TO SEE THEM.

THREE:

WHILE READING THIS, THERE WAS ONE
PERSON ON YOUR MIND THE WHOLE TIME...

TWO:

You were so busy thinking about that
person,
you didnt notice number twelve.

ONE:

You just scrolled up to check & are now
silently laughing at yourself.

r0cKyK0L0Gy...

2007-06-01T21:57:00.000-07:00

*FOOD-OLOGY*

Q. What is your salad dressing of
choice?
A. blue cheese & thousand island

Q. What is your favorite fast food
chain?
A. jollibee & wendy's!

Q. What is your favorite sit-down
restaurant?
A. ha? parang fine dining ba yan? ewan
eh..sa ngayon tgiFridays! haha

Q. What food could you eat every day
for two weeks and not get sick of?
A. ice cream & fries!

Q. What are your pizza toppings of
choice?
A. eh di lht ng nkkta mo ordinary fries!

Q. What do you like to put on your
toast?
A. stawberry/mango jam please

Q. What is your favorite type of gum?
A. spout & peppermint flavor!

*TECHNOLOGY*

Q. Number of contacts in your cell
phone?
A. i'm not counting!

Q. Number of contacts in your email
address book?
A. i'm not counting!

Q. What is your wallpaper on your
computer?
A. ah... it's the pic we had before having lunch in acihevers...

*BIOLOGY*

Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
A. right handed

Q. Do you like your smile?
A. nope

Q. What's your best feature?
A. none

Q. Which of your five senses do you
think is keenest?
A. sense of touch

Q. What is the heaviest item you lifted
last?
A. the capenter's stuff... :(

Q. Have you ever been knocked
unconscious?
A. hell yes! haha

*MISCOLOGY*

Q. If it were possible, would you want
to know the day you were going to die?
A. yes! i'm excited to know about the exact date... would you mind telling me when would i die?!

Q. Is love for real?
A. yes! 'coz love makes the world go round!

Q. If you could change your first name,
what would you change it to?
A: irene/irish!

Q. What color do you think you look
best in?
A: any shade of blue...

Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food
item by mistake?
A. uuc:

Q. If we weren't bound by society's
conventions, do you have a relative you
would make a pass at?
A. no! haha wala wala!! haha

Q. Have you ever saved someone's life?
A. nope

Q. Has someone ever saved yours?
A. nope

*DAREOLOGY*

Q. Would you walk naked down a public
street for $100,000?
A. NO

Q. Would you kiss a member of the same
sex for $100?
A. NO

Q. Would you allow one of your little
fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
A. Gotta think about it!

Q. Would you never go on myspace again
for $50,000?
A. sure haha... wla nmang mpala sa sarili kong accnt sa myspace eh!

Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine
for $250,000?
A. NO

Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of
hot sauce for $1,500?
A. YES!

Q. Would you, without fear of
punishment, take a human life for
$1,000,000?
A. yes! who wabts to go first?!

Q. Would you give up watching
television
for a year for $25,000?
A. NO

Q. What is in your left pocket?
A.nothing...

Q. How much alcohol did you have this
week?
A. none!

Q. Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good
movie?
A. haven't watched the movie yet

Q. Do you have hardwood or carpet in
your house?
A. all of the above including tiles

Q. Do you sit or stand in the shower?
A. hnde na aq gmgmt eh...

Q. Could you live with roommates?
A. dpende...

Q. How many pairs of flip flops do you
own?
A. i'm not counting!

Q. Where were you born?
A. masangkay, tondo, manila!

Q. Last time you had a run-in with the
cops?
A. me?! mukhng criminal b!?

Q. What do you want to be when you
grow up?
A. hmmm... to be an established news anchor!

RANDOMOLOGY:

Q. First place you went this morning?
A. salas!

Q. What's the last movie you saw?
A. pokemon the movie...

Q. Do you smile often?
A. nope

Q. Are you a friendly person?
A. ayos lang

Q. What color shirt are you wearing?
A. white!

Q. Can you believe you just sat there
and did this?
A. ?!?!

Q. What made you decide to fill out
this survey?
A. ah... i'm bored eh...

hundred things that you should know 'bout me!

2007-06-01T21:18:00.000-07:00

1. First Name: raquel
2. Last Name: pascua
4. Place of Birth: tondo
5. Male or Female: female
6. Middle Initial: Medenilla
7. Bus/Car: bus
8. School: st.scholastica's academy mkna.
9. Occupation: still a student...
10.Initials: rmp
11. Screen Name: do i look like a showbiz icon?

APPEARANCE
12. Hair Color: black
13. Hair Length: short
14. Eye color: black
15. Best Feature: is there any?
16. Height: 5"1... very small for my age!
17. Braces: none...
18. Glasses: at home i wear some glasses, but i don't wear it in school & outside...
19. Shoe size: 8 - 10
20. Waist line: ooopss... 31.5! too big!

FIRSTS
22. First best friend: terri
23. First Award: 2nd honor
24. First sport you joined: biking
25. First thing you did today: i opened my eyes
26. First Real vacation: when we went to bagiuo last summer w/ my dad...
27. First thing you said today: "inaantok pa ako!"
28. First Love: very confidential!

FAVORITES
29. Movie: every movie that i watch, i try to love them all!
30. TV Show: animes, chinovelas, myx, mms, wazzup! wazzup!
31. Color(s): pink, orange, purple, red, black & white
32. Rapper: eminem, snoop dog & akon
33. Place to get groceries: palengke & grocery store of course!
34. Food: i'm a glutton guyzz....
35. Season: even though there's no spring i love it! here in the philippines i always love the rain!
36. Candy: any candy! but i really hate kiamoy! ewww....
37. Sport: basketball & pool(billiards)
38. Restaurant: any restaurant! (hmm... i'm getting hungry by now!)
41. School Subject: cle & filipino
42. Animal: rabbit, fish, turtle & birds!
43. Book: i'm a bookworm!
44. Magazine: candy, witch, k-zone, seventeen, chalk & meg

CURRENTLY
45. Doing before you started this
survey: having some 'net!
46. Feeling: neutral???
47. Wearing: pe outfit!
48. Crying about: when you're reminiscing...
49. Eating: kakatapos ko lang mg-lunch...
50. drinking: kakainom q lng ng tubig...
51. Typing: of course my answers here!
53. Listening: to the sound of the tv
54. Thinking about: my answers here!
55. Wanting: chocolates!
56. WatchinG: eat bulaga
57. Where do you see yourself in 5
yrs: taking board exams
58. Kids: i don't want to have kids! it's not a part of my plan!
59. Want to be Married: after 10 years....
60. Career in Mind: in the field of broadcasting!

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE OPPOSITE SEX
63. Hair color: i want black & or brown!
64. Hair length: any length as long as he looks good in that hair length!
65. Eye color: black, brown & blue eyes
66. Measurements: of what?!??!?!?!
67. Cute or sexy: both!
68. Lips or Eyes: both!
69. Hugs or Kisses: both!
70. Short or Tall: both!?
71. Easygoing or serious: both?!
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: romantic!
73. Good or Bad: a lil' of both!
74. Sensitive or spontaneous:
spontaneous!
75. Hook-up or Relationship:
both?!?!?!? so it would be exciting...!
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One:
both!

HAVE YOU EVER
78. Kissed a stranger: ahem!
80. Gone commando: what the heck????
81. Ran Away From Home: achuuuu!
82. Broken a bone: yes! once only!
83. Got an X-ray: never!
84. Been on a cruise: how i wish...
86. Dumped someone: so many times!
87. Cried When Someone Died: of course!
88. Cried At School: almost everyday!!!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
89. God: of course YES!!!
90. Miracles: why not?! i'm a believer of God!
91. Love at First Sight: suppeer yes!
92. Ghosts: very much!!!
94. Soul Mates: no!
95. Heaven: i doubt it sometimes....
96. Hell: uhmmm.. i doubt sometimes...
97. Answered prayers: yes! God is so good for most of the time my prayers are answered!
98. kiss on the first date?: eventhough i'm a conservative, if i'm really obssessed w/ a guy i think yes!
99. Horoscopes: sometimes...

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

100. Is there someone you wish you
had?: of course there is!

boys & girls facts...

2007-06-01T19:44:00.000-07:00

BOYS' FACTS

>When a guy is not arguing, he realizes his wrong.
>When a guy looks at you with eyes full of questions, he expects you to leave soon.
>When a guy says "I'm fine after a few minutes" he means it.
>When a guy stares at you, he thinks your the most beautiful thing in the world.
>When you're laying your head on his chest, he has the world.
>When a guy calls you everyday, he is inlove with you.
>When a guy says he loves you, he means it.
>When a guy says he can't live without you, he's with you 'till you're done.
>When a guy says "i miss you", he misses you more than you could have ever miss him.

GIRLS' FACTS

>When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running in her mind.
>When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.
>When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around.
>When a girl answer "I'm fine after a few minutes" she is not at all fine.
>When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are lying.
>When a girl lays on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever
>When a girl calls you everyday. She is seeking for yout attention.
>When a girl wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered.
>When a girl says "i love you", she means it
>When a girl says she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future
>When a girl says "i miss you", no one in this world can miss you than that.

addictus sobranatus101

2007-06-01T16:38:00.000-07:00

hmm... guys mhilig aq sa fall out boy eh... ang top 3 songs q sa kanila....

*sugar we're going down
*thanks for the memories
*this is ain't scene, it' s an arm race

super addict kc aq jan sa 3 yan eh...
e2 rn lyrics nya eh...
"Sugar We're Going Down"

Am I more than you bargained for yet
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that's just who I am this week
Lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(A notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it
[x2]

Is this more than you bargained for yet
Oh don't mind me I'm watching you two from the closet
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans
Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(Notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it
[x2]

Down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)
I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down (down, down)
Down, down (down, down)
We're going down, down (down, down)
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)
I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

Thanks For The Memories
I'm gonna make you bend and break
(It sends you to me without wait)
Say a prayer but let the good times roll
In case God doesn't show
(Let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right
But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life
"Who does he think he is?"
If that's the worst you got
Better put your fingers back to the keys

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"

Been looking forward to the future
But my eyesight is going bad
And this crystal ball
It's always cloudy except for
When you look into the past (look into the past)
One night stand (one night stand off)

One night and one more time

Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"

They say I only think in the form of crunching numbers
In hotel rooms collecting page six lovers
Get me out of my mind and get you out of those clothes
I'm a liner away from getting you into the mood, whoa

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"

One night and one more time (One more night, one more time)
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time (One more night, one more time)
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"

This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race
I am an arms dealer.
Fitting you with weapons in the form of words
And don't really care, which side wins
As long as the room keeps singing
That's just the business I'm in

This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
I'm not a shoulder to cry on, but I digress

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate
I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate

I wrote the gospel of giving up
(You look pretty sinking)
But the real bombshells have already sunk
(Pre-Madonnas of the gutter)
At night we're painting your trash gold while you sleep
Crashing not like hips or cars
No, more like p-p-p-parties

This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
[This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Bandwagon's full. Please, catch another

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate
I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate

All the boys who the dance floor didn't love
And all the girls whose hips couldn't move fast enough
Sing until your lungs give out

This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
(Now you)
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
(Wear out the groove)
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
(Sing out loud)
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
(Oh, oh)
This ain't a scene, it's a god damn arms race

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate
I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate
mei iba pa nmn clang songs guyz lyk....

*but don't expect any change
*hey guys
*keep loving fall out boy
*on august 17th
*so i'm leaving for my vacation & i'll be back
*So please, keep sending me your corrections
*Until i get back alright
*Parker lewis can't lose (but i'm gonna give it)
*Chicago Is So Two Years Ago
*Dead On Arrival
*Grand Theft Autumn (Where Is Your Boy)
*Grenade Jumper
*Homesick At Space Camp
*Reinventing The Wheel To Run Myself Over
*Saturday
*Sending Postcards From A Plane Crash (Wish You Were)
*Tell That Mick He Just Made My List Of Things To Do
*The Patron Saint Of Liars And Fakes
*The Pros And Cons Of Breathing
*Yule Shoot Your Eye Out
*Last Good Part Of Town
*The World'S Not Waiting (For Five Tired Boys And A)
*Nobody Puts Baby In The Corner
*Fellowship of the nerd
*It's not a side effect of the cocaine, i am thinking
*Love will tear us apart (joy division)
*